Sometimes I wish I could disappear.

Friday, December 15, 2006

Life Is A Gift

Today before you think of saying an unkind word
Think of someone who can't speak.

Before you complain about the taste of your food
Think of someone who has nothing to eat.

Before you complain about your husband or wife
Think of someone who's crying out to God for a companion.

Today before you complain about life
Think of someone who went too early to heaven.

Before you complain about your children
Think of someone who desires children but they're barren.

Before you argue about your dirty house, someone didn't clean or sweep
Think of the people who are living in the streets.

Before whining about the distance you drive
Think of someone who walks the same distance with their feet.

And when you are tired and complain about your job
Think of the unemployed, the disabled and those who wished they had your job.

But before you think of pointing the finger or condemning another
Remember that not one of us are without sin and we all answer to one maker.

And when depressing thoughts seem to get you down
Put a smile on your face and thank God you're alive and still around.

Life is a gift

Live it

Enjoy it

Celebrate it

Embrace IT

And fulfill it

ok...its nice la...that poem... it tells u sumtin... its the truth... i should be happy with wat i hv...n dont hope for sumtin i cant hv... i dunno y but this poem made me sad... i m always sad la nowadays... *slaps herself* maybe i shouldnt read between the lines anymore... should jus ignore everytin... ok...i m confused...bout stuff... i m not hu i really am... sumtin is bothering me...

btw...will b blogging on sheng's bday tomro...after i got all d pics... so wait up... :)

~hotness

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Monday, December 11, 2006

alone...i feel alone... dunno y but i m jus feeling so down... n very alone... lonely... i hv no body... i wan to talk...but i dunno wat to say... i m scared... of i dunno wat... i m jus not myself nowadays... cz i feel i m alone... n i hv no one... haih... n now i m here writing crap... i m alone...

yoe emo...

well, i came across this statement kinda thing... n i kinda liked it (dunno y)... but here it is...~

If a girl cries in front of you,
It means that she couldn't
take it anymore.
If you take her hand,
She would stay with you for
the rest of your life;
If you let her go,
She couldn't go back to
being herself anymore.

A girl won't cry easily,
Except in front of the person
who she love the most,
She becomes weak.

A girl won't cry easily,
Only when she loves you the most,
She put down her ego.

Guys, if a girl cries because of you
Please hold her hands firmly,
She's the one who would stay
with you for the rest
of your life.

Guys, if a girl cries because of you,
Please don't give her up,
Maybe because of your decision,
You'll ruin her life.

When she cry right in front of you,
When she cry because of you,
Look into her eyes,
Can you see and feel the
pain and hurt she's feeling?

Think.
Which other girl have cried
with pure sincerity,
Infront of you,
And because of you?
She cry not because she is weak,
She cry not because she want
sympathy or pity,
She cry,
Because crying silently
is no longer possible,
the pain, hurt and agony have become
too big a burden to be kept inside.

Guys,
Think about it,
If a girl cry her heart out to you,
And all because of you,
Its time to look back
on what you have done,
Only you will know the answer to it.

Do consider it,
Because one day,
It may be too late for regrets,
It may be too late to say "I'm sorry".

To my friends...
Ponder this message seriously.
Dont do this to a girl,
You may regret
for the rest of your life.
Maybe in your life,
She's the only one that love
YOU the most.

yea....that d poem?... its kinda nice... hehe... dunno y... cz i m alone i guess...? but its true... n its sad... but its nice... but i dunno y...

ok i m officially not myself n mad... haih... dont feel like blogging... y do i even hv a blog? god only knows... god bless me...

~hotness n sadness n boreness

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Monday, December 04, 2006

okie...i got the pictures!! this is in Bangkok Jam... Hapy Bday Iris...!! we luv ya... btw, i noe the opening speech i made was quite short... so i will do another one for u...

"hey ppl, happy bday iris... n u have made our year in 4 alpha great! n we all had loads of fun in our sakai gang... the laughter n tears all put together n brought a wonderful 2006... u hv been my best table mate n we had fun not paying attention in class!! hahaha... i m gonna miss u... all of us r goin to miss u... but dun worry... no matter wat, we still stick together... corridoors cant bring us appart rite... so happy bday n we luv you... k lets eat..hehe"

the bday girl...in her elegant dress... O.O

swee, yoe, iris

tim n ken

dupi, yee jin, victor(iris bro)

this was the first dish...it came with a lot of other stuff...all thai...

ok that is the green curry... with noodles n its separate ingredients on its side... u suppose to mix them up n makan la... (tim, yoe, iris punye fingers sesat)

this the the fried/butter/briyani/ghee rice (not sure) it came in a pineapple... so i guess we call it pineapple rice?

ok...that is the dried chillie... thats yoe, tim n jo's fork... eating the chillie... the background is the sweet n sour chicken....

prawn... erm yea... we had prawn... its like a tradition dy la... prawn for d bdays... swee's got, yoe's got, kl's not sure... iris's got... so must make sure sheng's one got aso...LOL

this is the thai pepper which we found in the green curry... it was suppose to be damn hot... (they said damn hot la...)

so manusia-manusia yg berani, all tried the pepper... tim, yoe, ken... n omg... it wasnt hot... it was bitter!! it tasted horrible!! but it wasnt hot at all...

well, we were then done with dinner...

so as tradition, we usually mix the letfovers...to make a secret recepie for the bday girl... n that was it... green curry, thai pepper, dried chillie, n sum other stuff la... n we squeezed lime on it... (i noe the picture looks really wrong...LOL)

yes u hv to eat it!!!

oh!! she ate it!!

u hv to finish it k!! no taking it out...!!

aawww.... was it that bad?

k cake time!! wow look at the cake...

there was "happy bday iris" on the side of the cake with those cute heart shape sweets...

i thought she was 16??

everyone... (pic too dark...din use flash)

so after she blew out the candle... we stuck the candle deep into the cake... n asked her to take it out with her mouth... hahaha*evil laugh*

and she did it!!

see her nose... hahahah.... it has cream!! hahahaha

thats the present from the sakai gang...

open it!! do u like it? its all yours darling....

we love u iris... (sumone missing? i m gonna kill sheng!!!) ...happy bday girl... no matter wat... we will be together...

we had fun... it was a nice dinner...

~hotness

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Hapy Bday Iris!!!

ok...yday we celebrated iris bday!! actually her bday is on the 7th of dec but we had to celebrate it earlier since jo is not goin to be in the country dat time... hehe

so i had to pick up mr sakai from his hs... n in the car rite... my mum asked him...
"are u feeling dizzy? can u smell that?"
n he replied.."yea, a bit dizzy"
mum laughs.."hahaha... thats yoe's perfume"
n ken laughs... "yea i m feelings pening dy...haha"
so fine la... make fun of my perfume... sry la... i overly sprayed cz its new...hehe

n then mum dropped us at bb plaza... n both of us were like so blur...dunno where is the place...call here... call there... i was wearing heals n it hurt! couldnt walk that far but i was almost taller than ken...hahahah... then at last found d place...

it was held at Bangkok Jam, BB Park... not BB Plaza... it was a nice place... we had a private room all to oursleves... haha... there was this long table... the guest was 9 ppl... including iris n her bro then 11 la... so we were seated for dinner

n then the food came... first they had this starter... got sum fried stuff... n some mango thing... n they had this dried chillie... (sry blogger taking to long to upload d pics) ...n then we had this noodles thing with green curry n separate ingredients... n then got sweet n sour chicken, n then got mint fried noodles... n this type of fried/butter rice which came in a pineapple...

so that was the food la... n then timmy n i had this challenge... we both ate the dried chillie... joa ate with us the first time... yea... there was a second time... n the challenge was no drinking water after that... LOL... darn funny ler...

n then there was the thai pepper in the green curry... so we challenged each other to eat that too.. this time ken joined in... n after that... no water again... but ken drank so he was counted out... n tim n i... hahahah... only drank water after we finished out meals.. LOL...

n then we cut the cake... n gv her the present... form face shop... a set of stuff for the face... we the sakai gang got it for her la... :
~joa...the short one
~yoe...the loud one
~sheng...the pms one
~swee...the sakai one
~dupi...the framed one
~tim...the weird haired one
~ken...the caring one
~kay lynn...the sweet one

yea...dats the sakai gang...LOL...

anyways... we didnt have much as in do much to iris... cz it was held in a restaurant... n we were all dressed n it wasnt suppose to be a party... it was a dinner... it was a calm n elegant dinner for the calm n elegant iris... Happy Bday my fren... may god bless u

btw, will be posting the pics in my next post ya... so dun forget to catch that...

nitex...

~hotness

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Saturday, December 02, 2006

haih...my life... i hv so much to say that i dunno where to start...

ok... recently i hurt a person... n this person took it very badly... he actually went to the extend in hurting himself... n i really feel bad bout it cz i didnt think things would get so bad... but the decision i made will benefit me in many ways n if i took the opposite decision, i would hv regreted...

i noe myself n i noe i took the right decision... i will not change my decision no matter wat happens bcz its the right thing to do... this person i hurt really shook me up n i m in a situation which i hv never been b4... n i dun like this...

at this point of time... i really wanted my best fren to be there with me but he wasnt there... he wasnt there to support me, he wasnt there to advice me, he wasnt there to guide me... no one could hv understood how i felt then... my best fren let me down... nw i dun feel like talking to him at all...

so i turned to my close fren... he offered me help instantly n was by my side throughout the whole time... he helped me a lot n gave me strength n i really owe him one... i noe i troubled him but he was willing to help me n encouraged me to take the right choice...MY choice...n was there all the time... luv him lots.... thx ya...

n then all this problem brought back old issues between we girls... we had our heart to heart talk reliasing that we were not entirely honest to each other... n as usual... my darling fren hu i tell everytin to, had to bring up old issues on my love life... n they all claimed that i havent got over sumone... but i dunno how to explain to them the truth... actually even i dun noe the truth...

well, we then settle all issues n tried to be frank with each other but things jus din work out properly... so basicly, we dun share much stuff since we were in diff classes... but i nv thought it would bring so much problem to our friendship... is it goin to be like this next year? am i goin to be left out since the rest of the gang is in beta?

n my gud frem... its like i jus lied to her bout her ex cz i noe the truth will hurt her... i feel really bad doing it but i had no choice... i cant bare to see my fren cry over spilled milk... i noe she is not over him n i cant tell her the truth bout him... i m sry... but its the only thing i can do to ensure she moves on...

its like i m hving so much goin on that i jus dunno wat to do... isnt this too much to take?

my two cousins stayed in my hs for 1 week, n the fact that they really care bout me was the only thing that made me smile today... luv them

~hotness

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