haih...my life... i hv so much to say that i dunno where to start...
ok... recently i hurt a person... n this person took it very badly... he actually went to the extend in hurting himself... n i really feel bad bout it cz i didnt think things would get so bad... but the decision i made will benefit me in many ways n if i took the opposite decision, i would hv regreted...
i noe myself n i noe i took the right decision... i will not change my decision no matter wat happens bcz its the right thing to do... this person i hurt really shook me up n i m in a situation which i hv never been b4... n i dun like this...
at this point of time... i really wanted my best fren to be there with me but he wasnt there... he wasnt there to support me, he wasnt there to advice me, he wasnt there to guide me... no one could hv understood how i felt then... my best fren let me down... nw i dun feel like talking to him at all...
so i turned to my close fren... he offered me help instantly n was by my side throughout the whole time... he helped me a lot n gave me strength n i really owe him one... i noe i troubled him but he was willing to help me n encouraged me to take the right choice...MY choice...n was there all the time... luv him lots.... thx ya...
n then all this problem brought back old issues between we girls... we had our heart to heart talk reliasing that we were not entirely honest to each other... n as usual... my darling fren hu i tell everytin to, had to bring up old issues on my love life... n they all claimed that i havent got over sumone... but i dunno how to explain to them the truth... actually even i dun noe the truth...
well, we then settle all issues n tried to be frank with each other but things jus din work out properly... so basicly, we dun share much stuff since we were in diff classes... but i nv thought it would bring so much problem to our friendship... is it goin to be like this next year? am i goin to be left out since the rest of the gang is in beta?
n my gud frem... its like i jus lied to her bout her ex cz i noe the truth will hurt her... i feel really bad doing it but i had no choice... i cant bare to see my fren cry over spilled milk... i noe she is not over him n i cant tell her the truth bout him... i m sry... but its the only thing i can do to ensure she moves on...
its like i m hving so much goin on that i jus dunno wat to do... isnt this too much to take?
my two cousins stayed in my hs for 1 week, n the fact that they really care bout me was the only thing that made me smile today... luv them
~hotness