Sometimes I wish I could disappear.

Monday, April 30, 2007

wow...it has been more than a month since i updated... sumtimes i wonder y i hv a blog la? well, in the past one month so many things dat happened... had my bad times n d gud times...

in a simple way~

prefects camp...was darn fun, had a great time... enjoyed ourselves... i was laughing a lot la... wait... i always laugh a lot-so no diff.. hehe i like the sungai... yea the sungai really got the fun side out of every prefect there man... hahaha... it was fun la!

then our performance for prefect's gathering... yea d f5 performance... intially we had many problems la... with cooperation n participation, but finally everyting was settled and everyone was happy happy... had to practice for 2 months... n we were great!!

prefect's gathering... wasnt a big great thing as we expected... it was basicly quite a screw up la... kinda got the sbu name down... a lot of mistakes n things were done very unproffesionally la... but the VI's hakka performance made the day! darn cool mann!!! n plus everyone complimented the f5 performance! hahahah... it was worth the 2 months... ;)

the lawatan... i wanted to go... i kinda really wanted to go... but i din hv a fren to go with la... n since they did not hv enough ppl, i kinda suggested my frens la... but due to certain past school issues, both my frens got turned down from goin... so i din go aso la...

then...there was a time where i felt used by my good fren... i din feel important... i felt i was jus a doormat... jus sumone there... like i was jus temporary for the time being... "she will always be there la.."-kinda situation... he took me for granted... n i thought things were going the wrong way... so i decided to stop everyting...
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yea decided to stop the msgs, calls, etc... for that 1 week it was kinda obvious dat i was avoiding, then all things had to go wrong for me again when fate played a part... we ended up in various situations dat required us to interact which each other (camp-bus, group, situation) so dat weekend jus changed things back to square 1...

then, my best fren... she-hu i told everytin to... she-hu i shared everytin with... she-hu matters to me the most... had to get into a fight with me... yes i do agree we hv our differences, yes she does advice me, yes i did tell her my decisions... but i broke my promise to myself...n to her... but y cant she jus accept n leave it?
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ok...she is worried...n she is pissed wif me for being stupid when it comes to him... but i m sorry... i m nt losing 1 fren for another... i m not losing either of u... u both matter a lot to me... cant u two jus get along, n get to know each other? but i m sorry, i m sorry...nw we hv came to a conclusion-n i hope things would get better n bck to how it was...

this is only half the story...more to come dat happen in the month...(check the next post)

~hotness

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