OMG!!! i watched pirates today!!! hahahah!!! super not planned man... had to go to skul for kelas tambahan...so went la... kononnya study physics rite, but then ended up planning to go for movie at ts after class

hahaha... so cow n i went la... it was so funny la... cz cow wanted to watch spidey, n i made him watch pirates!! wakakaka! next we go spidey k cow, but i fall asleep nt my porb k... i watch once enough la... but anyone need teman to go 4 pirates again, CALLLL MEEE!!!

JOHNNY DEPP IS SOOO HOT!!!! hahaha...for captain jack sparrow, cn watch that movie many times aso la...

this part to jo n dupi :) :) :) ~

[erm...jo, dupi... u noe dat 'thing' i told u bout on sunday? i think its getting to me... hehehe... bout that dream n all... i hv been imagining a lot la... so unlike me... but... erm... hehhehee... u see i m already darn hyper jus typing bout it...

its like...ALMOST 1 year since the 'platform' incident... like so long dy nv feel liddis wei... hehehe... kinda like it... its interesting... looks like i m back into the game man... ;) but i m nt dat serious la... jus heheheheh...

btw, u noe dat 'platform' incident rite... happened on the 30th June 2006... dunno y i remember d date la... but...almost 1 year... darn long ah... when i look back rite, its like a total diff situation back then... i wonder wat would hv happen if all that didnt happen? *sigh* (bitter memories)]

hehehe...yea... life's nt bad la... so far so gud...

but the most stupid thing is dat when u ask ur fren to go with u to ttn, n then he says yes the day b4, then on that day itself, he doesnt reply ur msgs... then he calls u n says dat he is nt cmg... n jus totally ditched u rite b4 ttn...

its nt dat u cant go ttn alone la, its jus dat, he didnt even inform u... plus he said he would go d day b4, at least tell me earlier, u wouldnt die rite... then u saw me in skul summore, n didnt even mention a word bout nt goin... n on top of al this his blardy fon always says "sorrythiskissmyassnumberisnotavailable" n he doesnt reply ur msgs...

u think i dun get mad ah? wtv la... done n enough associating wif ppl liddis... aarghh... ppllikehimshouldrotandleftalonewithoutanyfrens *expressing anger* i din use vulgar words, so there is no worng k...

oh tomro got that College Life in One Day, American Degree Program at Taylors... ohkay... i gtg... its late... i need sufficient amount of sleep... wakaka

btw, goin langkawi on friday, cmg back on tuesday... hahaha... holiday... yea hope i can get my mind off sum things... dowan to think anymore...

cyaz...

~hotness

friday- VI IU night... i guess u noe y we went la rite... d school is full of boys! ....duh!! hehehe... so they had the charity dinner... jo, dupi, han, hy, kim n i... were there la... go earlier, cuci mata more time ma... bleh... ;)

ThE MidAS ToUcH... *smokes*

table...flower...deco...stage

thats my twin... 3 ppl said she looked diff... does she? 1 even said she looked 'very girly'...? hmph...

dinner...quite nice weih d food...

dupi: Bon Apetite!! =)

so had fun la... had to ditch my fren... n he wasnt quite happy bout it... sry la... next time k... hahaha... kena marah for going back so fast... hahaha... sry la... i make it up to u k... =)

n the other guy in the sketch, the one hu loved his mirror so much, he was darn hot too!!! yea...gud looking mann...

n to the guy hu actually acted like a woman, he has balls mann!! he is wat i call a real man! honestly, sbu guys hv no balls to do dat in front of a live audience... to go on stage aso sure a lot of probs one la... so Vi guys hv balls man!

happy happy happy =) =) =)
erm...i dunno y...

~hotness

friends...

i hv so many dat i think maybe i neglet a few...i m sry...

friends bring back memories... they are always wif u... they mean so much to u... especially when u hv no siblings to trun to, u go to ur friends... n ur friends understand u like no other...

but there r friends hu r ur friends jus for the sake of hving sumone there... they r nt true... n they dont care... n they jus leave u... n they hurt u... n it hurts so much u dont wan to continue the friendship... but u r nt liddat, u dunt leave ur friends... n u jus bare with them... does dat seem like stupidnity?

well, i had a great set of freinds... they jus make my life more colourfull everyday... they scold me, they advice me, we fight, we talk for hours, they listen to me crapping, they are always there when i need them, i can count on each an every one of them, they protect u, they stand up for u, they bake u cakes, they teach u, n u hv d most wonderful memories wif them...

luv u all guys....thnks for everything...





life's great wif u all! had fun in 4 alpha... n hving loads of fun in 5 alpha...

~hotness

p/s: sry la...emo-ing... jus upset...bout sum stuff la... =) i m fine btw, if u heard bout the motorcycle accident...

tertiba je change mood/situation...

my last post was like 8 hours ago? n i was in SuCh a bad mood... nw i m happy... hehehe

ate the cake btw...quite nice... it tasted like brownies... maybe dats wat u get when u use muffin mixture to bake a cake? hahaha... it seriously was nice... sry din eat it earlier...kinda didnt hv d mood...

VI guys are hot... n good looking... i should go to a all guy skull more often... hehehe... their perfromances like the drums...sketch...bands... i mean a FEW bands... were all great... n their dance aso... hotness mann!!

blog more bout VI IU nite when i get the pics... for nw, i m happy... i think i hv a crush on sumone... ;) ;) ;) ;) ;) ....dunno hu... hahaha...

~hotness

today was a bad day...

emotional indeed...

didnt cry in skul... came bck home, kinda started tearing...

very sad...too many memories of the skul...

n everytin dat happened...

loved eveyting in sbu la...

n was quite hurt in a way la...

i hvnt eaten the cake...really cant bring myself to eat it...

cz it reminded me of bitter memories...

i m sry...

i cried a lot...nw n also then...

when would it end?

hope my night wouldnt be as messed up...

*looking forward*

~hotness

yea today... jus wasnt my day... kinda wasnt really myself...

dunno y...

i kinda feel lost... dun like anyting... dun like anyone... get frustrated darn fast... easily angry... dislike everything that is happening around me...

its like a routine lifestyle... where i m jus a lamp post... doing the blardy same thing everyday... nth to expect of the next day... i feel so down n moody...

n i only talk to one person bout hw i feel... i only express all dissatisfactions to dat one person... n thnk god he understands me... hehe... but i dunno... dunt wan to burden him much anymore... sry ya...i noe u bare with a lot of my crap... we go badminton again k... release stress

i wanted to state this a long time ago... the activity, during prefect camp... we had this samurai challenge thingy... n when i was the one up there doin the challenge, i stood there in a superman post... both arms stretched out, right hand holding a sword, n my left leg up stretched behind.

n to my suprise, i lasted quite long... i din gv up... it hurt, but i din let go... dat position was darn hard... n when i think back... i did it coz i was angry at myself... sum sort of punishment dat i gv myself... i dunno y... n i had d determination to prove sumtin...

i was nv seen as a strong person or a capable person... i m always the one behind, the one hu wasnt good enough... so when i was asked to do dat, i wanted to prove dat i was not as wat ppl see me as... i m different... i admit, i dont potray dat image...

i dunno wat am i trying say here... i m just in a bad mood la...

its jus like evryting crashed n is broken... n i m nt doin anyting bout it... y am i liddis... i m feeling the same way i felt dat night at prefect camp during d samurai challenge... where i wan to do sumtin to punish myself... jus angry at myself... n i m doin it already... but i dun like it...

i had the sense of satisfaction after that fake samurai facilitator stopped the time when chee wei n i were left... but nw i hv no satisfaction... i jus dont feel right... i m doin it the wrong way... i m running away...

i dunno watz happening...

i dun like this... i dunno wat to do...

i m sry... maybe this isnt a good time to blog...

~hotness

to read bout ken's life in his OWN blog... check out:

www.lifezken.blogspot.com

=)

~hotness

ken is blogging!!! hahahah!!! i wanna laugh!!!

~hotness

hmmm wat to talk about? well ... i dun have a blog so i m using tis fella one to blog.. hehe for fun..

okay... exams just over.. and i m pretty exhausted bout it... glad hols coming... and ppl pls ya... arrange something for hols... pls.. i beg u ppl...

hmmm lets talk bout my day yesterday ... hmm let me revind first... okay yesterday was actually just an ordinary day... sunday yea? hmm er i went out in the morning for fishing... was nice ^^ eventhough gt nth.. woke up at 6.30 sumore .. and the first thing is i got a sms from sum1 ^^ hmm in the morning hehe.. it brighten my day pretty well.. i went there wif my dad oni.. it was fun lar..

then came back went for BADMINTON wif fat and YOE lol.... was pretty tired.. but i managed to brush up some my old rotten badminton skilss... hehe jkjk.. no lar i sux at it actually..

then came back... haha snatch wei yu's hp!!! lolz... his... ROMANTIC msges... lolz... ( i wont leave u lar) lolz !!!!! WEI YU notti ar... hmm then aih saddest part of the day. gotta study accounts... tats the worst thing...its paper 1.. there goes my day... ops haven... nite kinda chatted.. and bye sunday...

today schoolll had fun though .. accounts obviously wasnt easy... screwed up.. SHOOTING time.. hehe.. then OMG... add maths.. aih i screwed up again.. total die.. my add maths just flew away... flying with wings... aih.. hope nt getting any paper till exams.. hmm okay came back just slept tuition and there goes half of the day.. till now..

~ken

hahah... n i cant sleep...

moment of truth?
happened so many times...din get anywhere...

i regret... i regret so many things...

if i made a list, i can type for the whole nite till skul, n i wouldnt hv finished...

maybe i shouldnt....

i should hv moved away...

i should hv done so many things...

i should hv studied for my sejarah earlier....

i should hv practised more add math...

i should hv read salts thoroughly...

i should hv listened...

i should hv stick to my decisions...

i should let my head rule my heart, nt otherwise...

i should be sleeping...

i should be studying for my accs paper 1 nw...

i should be offline...

i should not be blogging...

nitez...

~hotness

life...

life has been a roller coaster ride for the time-being...

everytin is falling apart n everytin is so confusing... with emotions running wild... n on top of everyitn with the exam stress n the heavy revision load... late nights... excessive coffee intakes... very bad headaches...

i wonder how do we all go thru this? (answer me jo!)

in conclusion...>>life was stressful... very stressful...

n when u wanted dat shoulder to cry on, u couldnt find it... cz it was temporary... nv stable... nv urs... nv owned... nv true... nv will be... n u just tried to ignore the fact n carry on... acting as if nth has happened...

so far, it has been good... jus acting as if i dunno... but i noe... but its ok... cz i dun mind... well, i was temporary frm the start, so wat cn i expect rite?

one day-i m nt important, the next day-i m someone to talk to, the following day-i might jus be stranger ...getting used to the situation nw... i m jus going with the flow since i m nt ready to do anyting bout it jus yet...

so today...woke up by a phone call...

k: cm lets go play badminton later...
y: wat? where? *in the most sleepy way*
k: go near my hs there, u go ask ur mum n msg me k... faster...
y: yea ok... *tries to sleep bck*

unfortunately, i couldnt sleep bck... so woke up n showered n asked mum n went for badminton...

LOL... it was fun... badminton with 2 clowns... n very gud badminton players aso... had fun... went bck... darn tired... hving a very bad headache... n yea, plus the body aching... i wonder wat i m doing here blogging huh?

i wan to talk... but... sometimes u hv jus lost it... lost it... u dun even wan to initiate it... so u wait n c... see the true colours... u hv seen it... but u dun believe it... so u wan to see it show again... n if it does... u still wont noe wat to do...

so many questions... no answers... invalid reasons... irrelevant emotions... unidentified position... unknown decisions... unintelligent desires... all to sum up to trouble... yea i m looking for it... i cn sense it... but i still dunno wat to do...

i wonder y? i wonder y?....

~hotness

exams...

i can kill myslef!!!

oh yea, i can jump down a building la!!!

blardy hell, screwed up every paper i sat for!!! dun u think i deserve to die??

i dunno wat i studied... i dunno wat i read... i dunno wat i memorized!

i jus sat for the exam.... n discovered that i screwed up!!

n for all papers to screw up, it has to be SEJARAH!!

d only subject i kinda had a little hope so, n i ended up screwing up the whole thing...

i dunno to cry, to scream or to go mad...

wait...i m already mad...

i will jus pretend i didnt sit for any exams yet... n try to focus on my 11 remaining papers...

which maybe, i will screw up all 11 too...

oh yea... I 'LOVE' MY SCIENCE SUBJECTS.... so most probably i WILL end up screwing up...

so far, my dianogstiks were fantastic! with me screwing up...

nw i jus hope its fabulous, so i can screw up my 4 remaining subjects...

hahahaha... i m mad... yoe is mad... she is mad...

i think i need alcohol...

i need physchological(dunno hw to spell) help...

yup...i need a life... without exams...

i m doomed...

j is goin to kill me... i screwed up her add math again...

j is soo gonna kill me...

god bless me...

gos bless the f5s...

god bless k.siiva >>sry to say dat i m ur student...

i regret all actions...

gud luck...

cheers to life!

~hotness

ok...this was funny...

got this forwarded msg la... n i forwarded it to the 3 most wonderful ppl...

it was :
3 things u wont forget bout me~
name u wanna call me~
the word best describes me~
u wanna be my~

so the sweet candy answered...
3 things i wont forget bout u~
*u said u r hot. which is so not. B-)
*abubu
*a friend dat i tell everytin to :-s

name i wanna call u~
*abubu

the word that best describes u~
*crazy

i wanna be ur~
*close friend. wat else? haha

i started laughing... it was so sweet... aawww... he noes me the best!

then the gang's favourite cow answered...
3 things i wont forget bout u~
*ur laughter
*ur affection 4 abubu
*ur crazy attitude

name i wanna call u~
*cant think of it...ur name gud enuff

the word dat best describes u~
*emo...XD

i wanna be ur~
*hmm lets c... i wanna be ur master n u be my slave... XD nola wat else, fren la...

hahaha...cow oh cow... luv ya! i was so amused la...

next the person, hu i m the closest with n the one hu fights with me the most answered...
3 things i wont forget bout u~
*ur laugh
*ur carpet hair
*the fights we get into

name i wanna call u~
*yoe la... its ur name rite?

the word dat best describes u~
*abubu's desperado

i wanna be ur~
gud friend that has no relations with abubu... :)

typical of her...LOL... i was entertained...

only sent it to 3 ppl... hahah... kinda fun... maybe i forward later or sumtin...

~hotness

oh yea btw... all 3 had one common thing in their answers...abubu... -.-'' swt swt swt... i hope i dun get anymore of dat...

ok...since my recent posts r all filled with words even i myself barely understand... i decided to change the mode to the happy times... =)










hehehe...i jus noticed... we do hv a great time at skul huh... wat would i do after f5? i m sooo gonna miss all these... T.T

~hotness

do i even care?

do i look like i care?

i din wan to noe... (ok maybe i did wan to noe...a bit la)

i din ask for details...

r u doin it on purpose?

to tell me... for all ppl ME...

*i hope u dun read this...*

i wonder y do i even make an effort?

well maybe its jus fated for me to listen...

yea n i shall continue to listen...

i m not complaining...

i m jus stating dissatisfaction...

at least i noe wat happening rite...

god bless me...

~hotness

wat would u do if the past haunts u?

*blur*

if ur past is ur present... but the present is much more sweeter than the past... would the past haunt u? u were once the person hu waited for the past... but nw u hv the present... would u hope for the past or jus remain with the present? (u noe there is no future)

*cough* *cough*
scratch dat pls...(the above)

even though u r over with it... even though its nth nw... even though u barely give a damn bout it nw... but it still exist... sumwhere in there-it still exist... could be the slightest feeling ever...

n nw u noe theres sumtin else... in the slightest way ever...it affects u... u dunno it matters, u think its nth... but when u close ur eyes, its all in u... u see the truth... n nw u sit n wonder why?

u claim its over... u shut ur ears to advice... u reject all coments... u dun wan to make a step... u dun wan to lose the present... so far, the present has brought happiness... but when it brings sorrow, u wonder y u didnt listen to others? did u make a mistake?

do u regret ur actions?

had a dream last nite... or i should say morning, slept at 5... yea so i had a dream... it was a friday, i was outside skul, at the gate, there were very little ppl dat day... then *explicit explicit* n i woke up angry n hurt... to only realise dat it was a dream...

i wonder y it affected me? it suppose to mean nth rite? y do i even care?

~hotness

ok...referring to my april 30th posts... since it did not make sense to sum of u, actually rite... i myself dunno wat i wrote so much dat could take 2 posts... i jus wrote n wrote...without thinking... if u dun understand...erm...its personal la... d ones hu noes, then noe la... u dunno then leave it la k... hahaha

omg! screwed up my moral paper...cz i forgot my nilai... great rite... easy paper if i had studied... wats the point of studying moral la? is it even necessary ah? like no point la... i m obviously not goin to become more bermoral rite...so wats the point?

then my est paper... not enought time... great la... write n write n write... was writing till she said "masa sudah tamat, tulis ayat akhir kamu" ...haiyo... due to this my conclusion was crap... my solutions were crap...

3 papers down...21 more to go! yup...i noe, life sucks sumtimes... SUMTIMES... u see, life is great la most of the times...

dunno y i hv been thinking bout all the times we had la... all the fun n great times... where i felt so complete n happy... like i jus had everytin dat i ever wanted n everting jus falls into place perfectly... where i feel warmth n love n closeness... kinda miss all dat... how i wish i could relive certains moments like dat la... haih...love my memories...

ok i dunno wat the hell am i doin blogging nw....i actually rite... suppose to be studying for my sejarah... shit la... so much to finish in so little time... i m screwed la... blardy unprepared... k k wish me luck... 21 more to go!!

cyaz...

~hotness

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