yea today... jus wasnt my day... kinda wasnt really myself...
dunno y...
i kinda feel lost... dun like anyting... dun like anyone... get frustrated darn fast... easily angry... dislike everything that is happening around me...
its like a routine lifestyle... where i m jus a lamp post... doing the blardy same thing everyday... nth to expect of the next day... i feel so down n moody...
n i only talk to one person bout hw i feel... i only express all dissatisfactions to dat one person... n thnk god he understands me... hehe... but i dunno... dunt wan to burden him much anymore... sry ya...i noe u bare with a lot of my crap... we go badminton again k... release stress
i wanted to state this a long time ago... the activity, during prefect camp... we had this samurai challenge thingy... n when i was the one up there doin the challenge, i stood there in a superman post... both arms stretched out, right hand holding a sword, n my left leg up stretched behind.
n to my suprise, i lasted quite long... i din gv up... it hurt, but i din let go... dat position was darn hard... n when i think back... i did it coz i was angry at myself... sum sort of punishment dat i gv myself... i dunno y... n i had d determination to prove sumtin...
i was nv seen as a strong person or a capable person... i m always the one behind, the one hu wasnt good enough... so when i was asked to do dat, i wanted to prove dat i was not as wat ppl see me as... i m different... i admit, i dont potray dat image...
i dunno wat am i trying say here... i m just in a bad mood la...
its jus like evryting crashed n is broken... n i m nt doin anyting bout it... y am i liddis... i m feeling the same way i felt dat night at prefect camp during d samurai challenge... where i wan to do sumtin to punish myself... jus angry at myself... n i m doin it already... but i dun like it...
i had the sense of satisfaction after that fake samurai facilitator stopped the time when chee wei n i were left... but nw i hv no satisfaction... i jus dont feel right... i m doin it the wrong way... i m running away...
i dunno watz happening...
i dun like this... i dunno wat to do...
i m sry... maybe this isnt a good time to blog...
~hotness
<3 10:53 PM;
You're the one
Hotness
i m loud...mad...crazy...n very confused...
hide a lot of things...
my blogs r very indirect...
my advice-read between the lines! haha... =)
