wat cn i say?

the year we met was one to remember, the wonderful 06' where i matured a lot n learned lots of valuble lessons... as u noe, most lessons were learned frm u...=)

the first to make an impact, a special impact, which i would nt forget, n stole a special place in my heart, then shortly after dat, it was slashed, harmfully, painfully, n deeply... so deep, dat healing was impossible...the 30th june 06, a date to remember...

then situations changed, i bcame rebelious, had a mafia group liddat, went against all authorities... well, due to unluckyness, n also thnks to u, i had my share of displinary interrogations... as i said, i learnt a lot thx to u... the 30 september 06

then i made a pledge nt to talk or say anything to u... 3rd november 0>>i broke my promise n was being a normal fren as i always was to u... this continued n developed... n the holidays were filled of sweet sweet memories which i cant remember nw...hahhah

then the start of the new year, things were...erm...i cant remember actually... but i guess it was ok... then bla bla bla...i cant remember, i think we were very close, till i would consider u as my best friend...

then issues occured, i broke, u felt cheated... we split, nv to talk again... till nw... n its a wonderful story... n although u wished miracles could happen to fix things back, well luck is jus nt on my side...

well, chronologically, its sum emo story...hahaha...

this was a request, which i wrongly analysed n classified...
my next post would be of the same topic, with me in a much better mood of course...
sry b***

~hotness

when sumone hu u used to noe so well, so close, n used to be ur best freind... n nw all u cn say to that person is hi, in ttn... n u wish so much to get wat u had b4... but situations jus does nt seem to allow these miracles to happen...

n u wonder is it love, miss, or jealousy? n then things go right suddently... n u seem to be building dat broken relationship back, but suddently u get a remark such as,

"there is a lot u hv missed out, u dont wanna know la, i m in a really bad mood, tell u when i m cooled down"

n then it occurs to u dat this is sum sort of piercing into ur chest, cz this is was a former best fren would say... former...

~hotness

got a forwarded email frm timmy...one part of it was...

SCORPIO - The Addict

EXTREMELY adorable. Intelligent. Loves to joke. Very Good sense of humour.Energetic. Predict future. GREAT kisser. Always get what they want. Attractive. Easy going. Loves being in long relationships. Talkative. Romantic. Caring.

aaww...is dat me? horoscopes...haih... done believing those crap dy... but i still read la for fun... ;)

today had lunch at hartz chicken buffet,ts to celebrate nellie's bday... happy sweet sixteen gal!! hahaha... we had fun...especially with d whipped cream...hahah i guarantee i m gonna be hit to the max on my bday frm everyone! hahaha... i shall jus pretend i forgot my bday k...long long time more... dat time, we think SPM... O.O

talk bout the party more when i got d pics... for nw, i m lonely... n life sux

~hotness

k got tagged...malas-ness... nvm, it seems fun... i hv nth to blog anyways...hehhe

Name 20 people off the top of your head.

1. ken
2. joa
3. dupi
4. thus
5. swee
6. kenny
7. timmy
8. sheng
9. shaw nee
10. nellie
11. nicole
12. iris
13. ebe
14. alex
15. edward
16. kay lynn
17. wei yu
18. ernest
19. allieff
20. yee jie (kay lynn gv me this...cz i couldnt think dy)


How did you meet 14?
alex ah... dunno...at skul la i guess...

What would you do if you have never met 1?
my best fren... wat would i do without him ah? i would hv gone mad i think...

What would you do if 20 and 9 dated?
omg yee jie n shawnee!!!!! hahaha!!! i think there would be a serious height issue to be solved...

Did you ever like 19?
hu wouldnt like allieff la? he's d best! luv ya allieff!!

Would 6 and 17 make a good couple?
kenny n wei yu?? wei yu taken dy la... n kenny ar, dat one no need to couple one la...

Describe 3.
dupi...oh didi...she curses A LOT... nv met anyone like her... been with me since f2... luv her lots... she's cool la... cn talk n curse with her... also my ttn mate... we basicly hv fun la... ahahaha

Do you think 8 is attractive?
sheng...fish... yup...dats y shark dated her... ;) ;) ;)

Tell me something about 7.
timmy darling!!! he is my simpanan... n we hv been together for 5 months dy, n still goin strong k... rite baby? LOLX... XD =) =) =)

Do you know any of 12's family?
iris...yup... i went to her hs in f1 aso...we were close since then ma...

What's 18's favourite?
wat does ernie like ah? ...erm i try to figure out n see...??

Who is 9 going out with?
shawnee hu r u goin out with? (sum indian guy frm d chess competiton ah?? XD)

How old is 16 now?
kay lynn is 17 la...no... she is 16 n will turn 17 on the november 5th...

When was the last time you talked to 13?
erm...today at 8 in the morning, woke me up to ask me directions to taylors...

Who's 2's favourite band/singer?
jo ah...mika?

Would you date 4?
oh my goodness!! thus ah!! hahaha...my best buddy la...cnt date him

Would you date 7?
timmy...we r dating wat...hehehe...

Is 15 single?
yup still single n up for grabs...ehehe...he is nt bad u noe...

What's 10's last name?
nellie tan yee feng... which means its feng...

Would you ever be in a serious relationship with 13?
erm...wat the hell? y so....erm...?? *skips question*

Which school does 3 go to?
sbu la...

Where does 6 live?
pandan jaya...behind the lrt there...

What's your favourite thing about 5?
swee!!! erm...d way she irritates everyone...hahaha...nice to kacau her...but nw she pandai kacau org dy...

kays...nw yoe hot tags... timmy, ken, kenny, kay lynn, nellie

~hotness

OMG!!! i watched pirates today!!! hahahah!!! super not planned man... had to go to skul for kelas tambahan...so went la... kononnya study physics rite, but then ended up planning to go for movie at ts after class

hahaha... so cow n i went la... it was so funny la... cz cow wanted to watch spidey, n i made him watch pirates!! wakakaka! next we go spidey k cow, but i fall asleep nt my porb k... i watch once enough la... but anyone need teman to go 4 pirates again, CALLLL MEEE!!!

JOHNNY DEPP IS SOOO HOT!!!! hahaha...for captain jack sparrow, cn watch that movie many times aso la...

this part to jo n dupi :) :) :) ~

[erm...jo, dupi... u noe dat 'thing' i told u bout on sunday? i think its getting to me... hehehe... bout that dream n all... i hv been imagining a lot la... so unlike me... but... erm... hehhehee... u see i m already darn hyper jus typing bout it...

its like...ALMOST 1 year since the 'platform' incident... like so long dy nv feel liddis wei... hehehe... kinda like it... its interesting... looks like i m back into the game man... ;) but i m nt dat serious la... jus heheheheh...

btw, u noe dat 'platform' incident rite... happened on the 30th June 2006... dunno y i remember d date la... but...almost 1 year... darn long ah... when i look back rite, its like a total diff situation back then... i wonder wat would hv happen if all that didnt happen? *sigh* (bitter memories)]

hehehe...yea... life's nt bad la... so far so gud...

but the most stupid thing is dat when u ask ur fren to go with u to ttn, n then he says yes the day b4, then on that day itself, he doesnt reply ur msgs... then he calls u n says dat he is nt cmg... n jus totally ditched u rite b4 ttn...

its nt dat u cant go ttn alone la, its jus dat, he didnt even inform u... plus he said he would go d day b4, at least tell me earlier, u wouldnt die rite... then u saw me in skul summore, n didnt even mention a word bout nt goin... n on top of al this his blardy fon always says "sorrythiskissmyassnumberisnotavailable" n he doesnt reply ur msgs...

u think i dun get mad ah? wtv la... done n enough associating wif ppl liddis... aarghh... ppllikehimshouldrotandleftalonewithoutanyfrens *expressing anger* i din use vulgar words, so there is no worng k...

oh tomro got that College Life in One Day, American Degree Program at Taylors... ohkay... i gtg... its late... i need sufficient amount of sleep... wakaka

btw, goin langkawi on friday, cmg back on tuesday... hahaha... holiday... yea hope i can get my mind off sum things... dowan to think anymore...

cyaz...

~hotness

friday- VI IU night... i guess u noe y we went la rite... d school is full of boys! ....duh!! hehehe... so they had the charity dinner... jo, dupi, han, hy, kim n i... were there la... go earlier, cuci mata more time ma... bleh... ;)

ThE MidAS ToUcH... *smokes*

table...flower...deco...stage

thats my twin... 3 ppl said she looked diff... does she? 1 even said she looked 'very girly'...? hmph...

dinner...quite nice weih d food...

dupi: Bon Apetite!! =)

so had fun la... had to ditch my fren... n he wasnt quite happy bout it... sry la... next time k... hahaha... kena marah for going back so fast... hahaha... sry la... i make it up to u k... =)

n the other guy in the sketch, the one hu loved his mirror so much, he was darn hot too!!! yea...gud looking mann...

n to the guy hu actually acted like a woman, he has balls mann!! he is wat i call a real man! honestly, sbu guys hv no balls to do dat in front of a live audience... to go on stage aso sure a lot of probs one la... so Vi guys hv balls man!

happy happy happy =) =) =)
erm...i dunno y...

~hotness

friends...

i hv so many dat i think maybe i neglet a few...i m sry...

friends bring back memories... they are always wif u... they mean so much to u... especially when u hv no siblings to trun to, u go to ur friends... n ur friends understand u like no other...

but there r friends hu r ur friends jus for the sake of hving sumone there... they r nt true... n they dont care... n they jus leave u... n they hurt u... n it hurts so much u dont wan to continue the friendship... but u r nt liddat, u dunt leave ur friends... n u jus bare with them... does dat seem like stupidnity?

well, i had a great set of freinds... they jus make my life more colourfull everyday... they scold me, they advice me, we fight, we talk for hours, they listen to me crapping, they are always there when i need them, i can count on each an every one of them, they protect u, they stand up for u, they bake u cakes, they teach u, n u hv d most wonderful memories wif them...

luv u all guys....thnks for everything...





life's great wif u all! had fun in 4 alpha... n hving loads of fun in 5 alpha...

~hotness

p/s: sry la...emo-ing... jus upset...bout sum stuff la... =) i m fine btw, if u heard bout the motorcycle accident...

tertiba je change mood/situation...

my last post was like 8 hours ago? n i was in SuCh a bad mood... nw i m happy... hehehe

ate the cake btw...quite nice... it tasted like brownies... maybe dats wat u get when u use muffin mixture to bake a cake? hahaha... it seriously was nice... sry din eat it earlier...kinda didnt hv d mood...

VI guys are hot... n good looking... i should go to a all guy skull more often... hehehe... their perfromances like the drums...sketch...bands... i mean a FEW bands... were all great... n their dance aso... hotness mann!!

blog more bout VI IU nite when i get the pics... for nw, i m happy... i think i hv a crush on sumone... ;) ;) ;) ;) ;) ....dunno hu... hahaha...

~hotness

today was a bad day...

emotional indeed...

didnt cry in skul... came bck home, kinda started tearing...

very sad...too many memories of the skul...

n everytin dat happened...

loved eveyting in sbu la...

n was quite hurt in a way la...

i hvnt eaten the cake...really cant bring myself to eat it...

cz it reminded me of bitter memories...

i m sry...

i cried a lot...nw n also then...

when would it end?

hope my night wouldnt be as messed up...

*looking forward*

~hotness

yea today... jus wasnt my day... kinda wasnt really myself...

dunno y...

i kinda feel lost... dun like anyting... dun like anyone... get frustrated darn fast... easily angry... dislike everything that is happening around me...

its like a routine lifestyle... where i m jus a lamp post... doing the blardy same thing everyday... nth to expect of the next day... i feel so down n moody...

n i only talk to one person bout hw i feel... i only express all dissatisfactions to dat one person... n thnk god he understands me... hehe... but i dunno... dunt wan to burden him much anymore... sry ya...i noe u bare with a lot of my crap... we go badminton again k... release stress

i wanted to state this a long time ago... the activity, during prefect camp... we had this samurai challenge thingy... n when i was the one up there doin the challenge, i stood there in a superman post... both arms stretched out, right hand holding a sword, n my left leg up stretched behind.

n to my suprise, i lasted quite long... i din gv up... it hurt, but i din let go... dat position was darn hard... n when i think back... i did it coz i was angry at myself... sum sort of punishment dat i gv myself... i dunno y... n i had d determination to prove sumtin...

i was nv seen as a strong person or a capable person... i m always the one behind, the one hu wasnt good enough... so when i was asked to do dat, i wanted to prove dat i was not as wat ppl see me as... i m different... i admit, i dont potray dat image...

i dunno wat am i trying say here... i m just in a bad mood la...

its jus like evryting crashed n is broken... n i m nt doin anyting bout it... y am i liddis... i m feeling the same way i felt dat night at prefect camp during d samurai challenge... where i wan to do sumtin to punish myself... jus angry at myself... n i m doin it already... but i dun like it...

i had the sense of satisfaction after that fake samurai facilitator stopped the time when chee wei n i were left... but nw i hv no satisfaction... i jus dont feel right... i m doin it the wrong way... i m running away...

i dunno watz happening...

i dun like this... i dunno wat to do...

i m sry... maybe this isnt a good time to blog...

~hotness

to read bout ken's life in his OWN blog... check out:

www.lifezken.blogspot.com

=)

~hotness

ken is blogging!!! hahahah!!! i wanna laugh!!!

~hotness

hmmm wat to talk about? well ... i dun have a blog so i m using tis fella one to blog.. hehe for fun..

okay... exams just over.. and i m pretty exhausted bout it... glad hols coming... and ppl pls ya... arrange something for hols... pls.. i beg u ppl...

hmmm lets talk bout my day yesterday ... hmm let me revind first... okay yesterday was actually just an ordinary day... sunday yea? hmm er i went out in the morning for fishing... was nice ^^ eventhough gt nth.. woke up at 6.30 sumore .. and the first thing is i got a sms from sum1 ^^ hmm in the morning hehe.. it brighten my day pretty well.. i went there wif my dad oni.. it was fun lar..

then came back went for BADMINTON wif fat and YOE lol.... was pretty tired.. but i managed to brush up some my old rotten badminton skilss... hehe jkjk.. no lar i sux at it actually..

then came back... haha snatch wei yu's hp!!! lolz... his... ROMANTIC msges... lolz... ( i wont leave u lar) lolz !!!!! WEI YU notti ar... hmm then aih saddest part of the day. gotta study accounts... tats the worst thing...its paper 1.. there goes my day... ops haven... nite kinda chatted.. and bye sunday...

today schoolll had fun though .. accounts obviously wasnt easy... screwed up.. SHOOTING time.. hehe.. then OMG... add maths.. aih i screwed up again.. total die.. my add maths just flew away... flying with wings... aih.. hope nt getting any paper till exams.. hmm okay came back just slept tuition and there goes half of the day.. till now..

~ken

hahah... n i cant sleep...

moment of truth?
happened so many times...din get anywhere...

i regret... i regret so many things...

if i made a list, i can type for the whole nite till skul, n i wouldnt hv finished...

maybe i shouldnt....

i should hv moved away...

i should hv done so many things...

i should hv studied for my sejarah earlier....

i should hv practised more add math...

i should hv read salts thoroughly...

i should hv listened...

i should hv stick to my decisions...

i should let my head rule my heart, nt otherwise...

i should be sleeping...

i should be studying for my accs paper 1 nw...

i should be offline...

i should not be blogging...

nitez...

~hotness

life...

life has been a roller coaster ride for the time-being...

everytin is falling apart n everytin is so confusing... with emotions running wild... n on top of everyitn with the exam stress n the heavy revision load... late nights... excessive coffee intakes... very bad headaches...

i wonder how do we all go thru this? (answer me jo!)

in conclusion...>>life was stressful... very stressful...

n when u wanted dat shoulder to cry on, u couldnt find it... cz it was temporary... nv stable... nv urs... nv owned... nv true... nv will be... n u just tried to ignore the fact n carry on... acting as if nth has happened...

so far, it has been good... jus acting as if i dunno... but i noe... but its ok... cz i dun mind... well, i was temporary frm the start, so wat cn i expect rite?

one day-i m nt important, the next day-i m someone to talk to, the following day-i might jus be stranger ...getting used to the situation nw... i m jus going with the flow since i m nt ready to do anyting bout it jus yet...

so today...woke up by a phone call...

k: cm lets go play badminton later...
y: wat? where? *in the most sleepy way*
k: go near my hs there, u go ask ur mum n msg me k... faster...
y: yea ok... *tries to sleep bck*

unfortunately, i couldnt sleep bck... so woke up n showered n asked mum n went for badminton...

LOL... it was fun... badminton with 2 clowns... n very gud badminton players aso... had fun... went bck... darn tired... hving a very bad headache... n yea, plus the body aching... i wonder wat i m doing here blogging huh?

i wan to talk... but... sometimes u hv jus lost it... lost it... u dun even wan to initiate it... so u wait n c... see the true colours... u hv seen it... but u dun believe it... so u wan to see it show again... n if it does... u still wont noe wat to do...

so many questions... no answers... invalid reasons... irrelevant emotions... unidentified position... unknown decisions... unintelligent desires... all to sum up to trouble... yea i m looking for it... i cn sense it... but i still dunno wat to do...

i wonder y? i wonder y?....

~hotness

Hotness
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